Desiray's Site

Well what can I say about me. Hmm, let’s pull up a chair and have a cup of coffee or a latte and I will tell you a little about me. Now that I have given you my hospitality and made you feel at home let’s talk like friends. I would have to say that the best way to know who I am is to take time out of your day to drop pass my page. Here at my page you will find several interests of mine.

Check out the links to know what type of music I listen to and the books and movies I do watch. If I had to say to know what I am passionate about and where my heart lives is to read my blogs and journals. When I write my blogs you will find them to be very heart felt full of zeal and compassion with a confidence and sometimes a strong conviction. I first want to say that I am a child of God and when I say that I not just saying that so likely. I am a servant of the gospel and His disciple; I have my own personal walk with my Lord and Savior.



Many people will say they are His children but yet they have no real relationship with Him. That is not I, I won’t compromise my faith for anyone or any persons, nor will I argue over the word for it stands for what it is. What I will do is show you what the word says and pray that the spirit reveals it to you. I am not just a “Woman”; I am also a “Woman of God” which means, “I am a Kept “Woman I say this with confidence because I have had my share of struggles and challenges in life and with these lessons I learned I could only depend on HIM. Do I still have trials and struggles in life? Of course I do because none of us are “exempt” but with God on my side I will have the victory. So when you see me down don’t count me out yet, because He’s not through with me yet!

Life is about appreciation, living it to the fullest of there is! Spending time within my community doing and attending different social events is one of my highlights. I enjoy taking my weekend getaway trips. When it comes to meeting people I enjoy it very much it allows me to not only make a new friend but to learn about their culture and who they are. To me this is the beginning of what a solid foundation for friendship is about. Now that you have just a glimpse of my world I invite you to come back as often as you can, because you never know what you will find here. In my final statement, everyone is welcomed to my page. Rather you are a Christian or not you are welcomed because we all need someone to love us and show us love. Remember never get so religious that you become no earthly good to anyone.

This is a very personal testimony it's for all to read, but not to feel sorry for me or what I went through but for you to see how good God was to me in this. I’ve always said from beginning of time of my being online that my goal is to minister and to do that I must be transparent about myself and I have been. Today is no different then before, so I ask you to listen to what I am saying and allow the spirit to speak to you. Several years ago I had a nervous breakdown and that done a lot to me. It caused me more misery and pain and despair then I could have imagine. Never in my wildest of dreams would I of thought that I could have a nervous breakdown. But it happened the enemy had my mind. I was given medicine from my doctor to take to keep me calm, but the only thing the medicine did was kept me drugged. Now I know right now you are saying to yourself how can the enemy have a child of God’s mind, well the only thing I can say is that Christ kept me, because it took Jesus to go to hell and get it for me. If you don’t’ know what I mean by that statement then my child you keep living and one day I pray you never find out. I was so messed up and confused that I could hardly think straight. Many days and weeks I lied in that bed not wanting to go outside my house, the only strength I had was to make it to church, and in my mind I kept saying why am I going to church? Most of this was from my own disobedience to Christ.

In my breakdown I lost my job I had no money to take care of my home or me. I tried looking for work but never really put that much effort to it. Many times through out the day I would call my mom and just cry to her and felt so alone and everything that I touched just dried up. All doors shut that I tried to open, and then one day I felt that I just wanted to end my life. I remember picking up a bottle of my pills and I sit there on the bed-crying saying Lord I just can’t take any more of life, I want out of it now! I put the pills in my hand raised my hand to put them in my mouth when my phone ranged and I answered it. It was my mom, she said Desi’ I’m coming over right now. I told her not to come over, that I was about to go to sleep. When I got off the phone with her I just laid on the bed with the pills still in my hand. The next day I woke up and those pills where still on the bed, I picked them up and placed them back in the bottle. I got dressed and tired to see if I can get some financial help.

Well needless to say that door shut in my face too. When I came back home I remember falling in the floor crying out to God WHY! WHY ME! And like a second I heard Him tell me “ BE STILL AND KNOW THAT I AM GOD” I laid in that floor for what seem like an hour. I got up and I felt like a weight was taken off my shoulders. My middle sister called me and asked what is going on in my life, I told her and she said to me “Desi don’t worry me and my husband will help you out financial” I knew then that was God who did this. My sister and her husband took care of me for six months they paid all my bills for me, nothing got turned off nor did none of my bills get behind in payments. After the six months I was offered a job, it started part-time and then it went full time. It took me six months to come out of that breakdown, and I am so glad that God kept my mind because truly I was not in right frame of mind.

What He was teaching me was that I had to rely solely upon Him and no one but Him, not my career not my no one or anybody. He had to get my attention and me to Himself, and in that time He revealed so many things to me. He was maturing me to the next level in Him And I needed to be strong for what He had in mind, but He needed to see what I would do if I lost everything that was dear to me. Because a day was coming when I will loose what I hold dear and I needed to be prepared for it. And here I am years later standing as a stronger woman of God and stronger in Christ. And yes that day did come where I did loose those things, which I held so dear to me. And today I thank God for that suffering I endured because truly had He not prepared me I would have not be able to deal with it. So when people hear me say He is my everything I mean that thing. When you hear me say I won’t compromise when it comes to Him I mean that thing. Now that you have heard my story I pray that you are encouraged because the first time I told my story people would say how can a Christina have a nervous breakdown or be depressed that’s of the enemy and that is true for it is.

But Christians to can have these things happen to them. And now people who know me can say why I look at life in a different way, because I was about to end mine. And to truly appreciate life you must understand where life comes from. And I truly do know now and I share this story with anyone who tells me they are about to give up. After they hear it they say “then there is hope for me” and I say yes there is. God kept me when the enemy had a hold on my mind. And during that time my favorite gospel song is “HE’S GRACE & MERCY “ If you never heard the song before I would strongly suggest you listen to it, it’s
Very powerful song for those who have been so far down and out. Thanks for reading my testimony and I know it will encourage someone body.

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